I thought I would share this with family and friends.
Written By: Jim, The Honored Husband of
Susan Pongratz 1949 – 2011
On The 15th Day of May, 2011
To My Wife,
I and everyone else thought that you would be writing a letter like this instead of me.
Once again you have taken me by surprise as you did so many times in our life. You kept our love alive by those same means, your spontaneous humor, your loving touch, your loving attention, your determination, your compassion for everything you did in life and your love for every day of life itself. You made me feel that I was loved by you, more than anyone could ever imagine.
I never understood it all but I knew there was a difference in our relationship compared to some others. I could not understand how and why some husbands wouldn’t have that interest to go home, spend time together, trust one another and not sharing that available moment. I foolishly thought most people in a good relationship had the same love and respect for each other as we did. Decades ago I realized we did have an unusual relationship, different from the standard, it was loving, trusting, compassionate, and relentlessly strong. Every day I would look so forward to see your face and hear your voice when I would walk in that door. How so disappointed I was if you were not home yet. I had in our home what every man could only wish for, I loved and was loved by the most tender, loving woman imaginable, and that was you, honey.
I tell myself that there is so much I should have said or done, then I think of the past years of our lives on the short list and that’s what we were doing every day, telling and showing each other how strong our love was for each other, battling for that extra day of life together.
The battle is over for you, I know you are up there somewhere with that smile (oh how I miss that smile) looking out for me and the family, no I’ll change that, you are free of all the burdens you so willingly took on. I hope you still look down on me and the family with that smile.
My heart hurts with every beat and I question how will go on every minute of the day. I miss your touch, your lips, your smell, your hair, your ora. I am so lost without you, you are my life, body and soul.
Where do I, deep down in my gut, reach down and pull out the means to go forward. You were so strong, so amazing, I feel so weak compared to you. Maybe that’s because our strength was us together.
We’ll I’m going to rest now I’ll talk to you tomorrow, I Love You
P.S.
I feel so guilty, I hope you forgive me for feeling sorry for myself loosing you, the love of my life , my soul mate, the part of me that is now missing, my heart feels so heavy. I just figured this might make me feel better writing this and you might like me talking to you too.
Oh baby doll, Oh baby doll, I miss you
I have entered this on your site today, one month now, from when you left us. Nothing has changed, I think it's getting worse, my body ackes missing you. God, I miss you. My soul wants to be with you.
Grandpa took me out driving today, I wish you could have been there to yell about the mailboxes. It’s going to be difficult growing up without your advice but I know you’re watching over me. Make sure you watch over Alex to, he’s the one that needs it. Ha Ha 
