Susan M. Pongratz

Not a Good Day in History

May 5^th, 2016 / 11:00pm

 Five years ago today I kissed you good night and headed to bed, you told me you were going to stay up a little bit and shut the house down for the night. Those were the last words we ever spoke, the last kiss, the last touch and the last feeling of contentment my heart has ever since felt.

 This is what I remember this time this day every year. My chest again is being crushed and my heart is empty and aching and I can’t catch my breath.

 I guess this is what happens when you lose your soul mate, the love of you live, the other half of your body and soul. I have faith in that there is greater forever for our souls, that there is a great beyond, and our journey on earth is only the beginning and that we will once again be together. That is the only way I can continue on, until my journey is completed.

 There are so many of us out there, my heart goes out to anyone who has had to go through losing a loved one. May God be with You.

I Love You My Dear, I miss you so much you could not imagine.

Waiting for the day we are back together again as one.

XXXXXXXXXXXXXXOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

05/06/2013
Good Morning My Love,

 I wish there wasn’t an anniversary, but there is and it has been two years since you left us and I image that day like it was yesterday. I miss you with every breath I take and every beat of my heart. Lives moves on, but believe me it so brings to light the impact you had on our everyday life together. Our togetherness was our peace at this time in life, now which has changed so dramatically it has me again looking for all the answers to life’s questions and directions. You on the other hand are probably enjoying not getting any older and not having to put up with me. I hope you are at peace and enjoying yourself up there you so deserve that. I miss and love you so much my dear, stop by and visit any time.

 Well you know I love and miss you beyond believe, Your Love

PS:   A little poem I found to share

    Death is nothing at all. It does not count. I have only slipped away into the next room. Nothing has happened. Everything remains exactly as it was. I am I, and you are you, and the old life that we lived so fondly together is untouched, unchanged. Whatever we were to each other, that we are still. Call me by the old familiar name. Speak of me in the easy way which you always used. Put no difference into your tone. Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow. Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes that we enjoyed together. Play, smile, think of me, and pray for me. Let my name be ever the household word that it always was. Let it be spoken without an effort, without the ghost of a shadow upon it. Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it ever was. There is absolute and unbroken continuity. What is this death but a negligible accident? Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight? I am but waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near, just round the corner. All is well. Nothing is hurt; nothing is lost. One brief moment and all will be as it was before. How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!

George Henry Holland

                        This was a card I bought you years ago and just had to share it once I read it today.

Love you for your laughter.


Love you for your touch.


Love you for that smile of yours


that cheers my heart so much....


Love you for the welcome

that’s always in your eyes.

Love you more than any words

could make you realize!

 
Love & Miss You My Dear !!!!!!!!! Hugs & Kisses

You’ve been busy pulling strings, many prayers answered.
  I hope for whatever reason this has happened I will be able to honor you by fulfilling the
reason and or purpose I must still have here on earth.
You have me looking back at the end of everyday to see what I can do to make it a better day tomorrow, not for myself but as you did for those we love and come in to contact with.

I have been having some wonderful memories of old times in Texas, Pa. Chicago, so many places we have been, working, laughing, living life and having fun. We worked hard and played hard, we have had some amazing times. I miss your little giggle, you laugh, your tender touch, and that  little noise you would make
when I was doing something wrong, which was hardly ever. LOL  
I’m sure you look down now and make that same noise at me!!!


Oh one day, Oh one day. Just keep showing me the way to that one day!

I Love You Baby XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Hi My Love,

 Again too many words to fit in a candle.

 Your site has reached over ten thousand viewers and climbing. I know I’m probably your biggest viewer. So many have visited, which in turn shows how many hearts you have touched. We miss you dearly.

  I just walked out of your closet, it’s so amazing I can recall you in every piece of clothing in there. God I miss you so much.  So far I can still get your scent but it’s fading which is very upsetting.  I don’t know if I will ever feel whole again but that’s ok as long as I know we will be together again.  

 Wish you were here to talk to. Funny, seemed like we didn’t have to move our mouths to communicate we would know what each other was about to say before the words were able to come out.  You were so wise in a simple way, made everything make sense.  You of all people know there is another side of your passing and I have this passionate hatred in me about that. I don’t know if I can get past it. I feel if I cannot find my peace with that, it may hinder my opportunity to spend life everlasting with you up there.  That I ‘m not willing to do, so I will eventually have to throw it over my shoulder and place your love in its place. Hopefully I will achieve that before I see the man upstairs.

This sucks, life isn’t always fare and they say God always takes the souls of the good ones first.

You know I would have been very happy to give my life for yours and prayed for that for many years during your suffering with the cancer.

Well enough of this downer stuff, family as you know is doing pretty good down here. Everyone is looking for your guidance from up above and some needing more than others.  LOL

 I leaving you for now, I cherish our memories and still have this big hole you left in my heart.

I Love You,
Forever Your Soulmate

                                                                
    Hi Honey, I guess I’m celebrating for you that you are not going through what you had to, to maintain your life here on earth. We all still know you were taken sooner than should have been.  We are missing you in so many ways you would never imagine.  It has been one year and we have made it. I hope that your transition is as wonderful as we all feel it was. The little faith I have in life makes me hold on, knowing there will be a day of being together again.  I’m sure you’ll have plenty of stories to tell us on our arrival, black holes, life beyond and all the unanswered questions of mortal life.  I’m trying to keep this positive, so hard to see that, with watery eyes.  I love you and miss you so much, with every glancing memory that passes.  Patiently waiting to see that brilliant smiling face again. I know you have been with me a few times, so keep it up I need all the help you can give. I Love You Baby

Forever Yours,
Loving Hubby                                                             

Happy Valentine’s Day,

Sending up to you what I have left of my heart,

 hopefully it will float by you and you can hear the little song it plays.

 Really missing you, I could use a couple of your good old hugs.

 I hope your celebrating with Dad and everyone there.

 I know you have to be missing me.

Love You Baby

Hi Sweetie,
A little late but I was composing and had to stop, well I’ll try to finish and get it on your site.
I'm back and finishing my letter to you.

Hi honey,
Just keeping you up to date. Everyone sent us Christmas wishes this year and keeping you and Dad in their prayers. I do believe Julie’s cookies and Marianne’s treats were mine, I know you always said you don’t like sweats but I’m sure you would have taste tested them for me as usual. Dawn and the children sent handmade cards, holiday snacks and new beautiful family photo. Mom, Kathy, Joanne and family have been so supportive, just a card or call that seems to arrive when I need it the most. Luckily I was able to spend the holiday with the girls and the kids, not sure how I would have got through the holiday without that. I have a lot of trouble keeping it together communicating with everyone as soon as you come in the picture and that to me is always. Trying to stay on the positive because of all the fantastic memories everyone has of you throughout your lifetime with us. You sure are missed. I’ve walked into your closet maybe ten times now and that is when I feel you the most. I can image a memory of you in almost every piece of clothing I see. It’s so very hard but so many great visions and feelings come about.

Well till next time, I Love You, Miss You.

You’re in my prayers, keep me in yours.

Have been thinking of you often lately.  Thanks for teaming up w/the rest of the family up there and helping Tessa get better for Mom, she would be lost without her.

I thought of you when I too, when I took my national certification exam last week.  I know I was talking to you,   Dad, and Dan's wife Nancy.  Thanks for the help, it obviously made a difference.  I remembered how you made flash cards when you would study for your tests.

I thing of you often, with a smile on your face and missing your laugh.  Jim misses you terribly.  It was just grand he could spend Christmas with the girls and grandkids.  Both of your daughters are such precious gifts. 

We had a nice Christmas, Mom is a little slower moving and getting a bit shorter each year as you know.  Julie and Mike are in. We are all working and healthy and with each other.  What more could we ask for in life.

Wish you were still with us, even though we know you are in a better place.  Give Dad a hug and kiss for me.

Love to you all, Kath