Happy new Year My Love, 
I’m truly blessed I tell myself, but I would give it all back to be together again. That’s terrible of me I know for all that have been given but that is the truth. There is nothing in this world that can replace that emptiness I have in me that you filled. You are as usual for some reason literally taking my breath away today, oh panic attacks. I’m really having a hard time writing today because of missing you and trying to type with tremors.
I have tried to figure out how and what I miss of you the most. I remember us sometimes not even having to literally speak to each because we knew what each other was going to say or do and there would just be an answering comment. I miss brushing by you in the kitchen with our always glancing touch. Traveling to the store or restaurant or anything we did together which was everthing thankfully. Sitting on the couch with you head on my lap rubbing your neck, touching your hair, your soft delicate skin, and the soft sent of fragrances. I miss you by my side not only a night in bed but the truly twenty four dash seven. I miss having to do things for you no matter how simple and no matter how much I might have complained, I loved it, I felt like your hero and I felt needed. I miss your little quirks, you had sayings and moments that was all just you. When I’m out with the family we always comment what you would say or do in the same situation. You always made me feel loved and I thank you for that.
I know there are plenty of people missing you too, there are 12,627 hits on your site. You have definitely had an effect on many people’s lives. The only explanation I can come up with that God would take you from us is that you had accomplished want he needed you to do here and I know you had truly suffered enough to go straight to heaven. Hopefully he has many more plans for you, I know you are not one to sit around, and I know you had some plans of your own.
Well my love have a Happy New Year, Come visit.
Well my love I’m going back to reality, I love talking or writing to you whatever I know you get the message.
Love You Lots of Hugs and Kisses
