Hi My Love, Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!
I’m sure your celebrating like never before and I’m sure you have your beautiful smile on! I’m so jealous of the souls your with, enjoying what we all had here on earth and miss so dearly. One day to be enjoyed together again.
The Christmas was terrible in one respect that it brought the heart wrenching missing of you, the better part was the memories that we had together. Oh, how you loved the season and everyone knew how much you enjoyed the holidays. You always went all out, sometimes a little over the edge. Your decorating, singing, music, and gala mood could always bring a smile to everyone’s face.
We burned your candle in your memory at one of your most loved Christmas decorated places in the world, Disney World. You just loved the decorations, lights and atmosphere. It was so hard remembering us walking through there holding one another, enjoying the holiday. You just loved that place at Christmas. I felt your presence because I know you would not let me go without you. As difficult as it was for me to go, I knew you wanted me to and it will be the last time we will see it. The kids were so excited with the magic they were experiencing. Their faces were smiling like yours would. Oh, how they would have enjoyed their Grandma at such a place. Everyone wrote a little something on you Memorial Site. I was so grateful that everyone as busy as it was took the time to say something to you, shows you’re in everyone’s heart and thoughts.
It's 2012. It has been the toughest seven months in my life and I'm sure others who have lost a loved one understand. Many days you have saved me with our memories, oddly the same memories that tear at my heart several times a day. I do believe you’re above with Dad and everyone else watching over us, I know I wouldn't have made it this far without you. I ask myself and you on a daily basis what to do next, without the memories of your thoughts, love of life, morals, values, family and love I wouldn't last a moment down here. You, like when you were here in your quiet, subtle ways guide us thru these times that we have not been taught to deal with. You have done an excellent job as usual because we are all still down here talking to you. Looking on to 2012, I will not say there could not a worse year. I'm blessed with great memories and loving family who love you as much as I do.
Well I’m going to try to do a little better in 2012, not sure how to do that but hope you will stay close and help.
Forever in My Heart, I Love You
They say it gets better in time, I guess I have a ways to go.
Missing You as much as the day you left.
Your Hubby still missig his other half.
